Everything I have been running from
Everything I have been suppressing
All the memories, all the pain and haunting flashbacks
nipping, biting, tearing at my heals
my heartbeat thunders, my breathing quick and jagged
my bare, bleeding feet, pitter patter- pitter patter, faster; faster
I keep running, never sleeping soundly unless the car is moving
Is your gun loaded? Never give my real address
Never loving, never caring
always moving, always running
wind in my face, drugs in my hand
giving my body
in exchange for demand
I will do anything to make the pain stop
I don't care who I hurt.
Leaving everything I've loved and struggled to gain
broken, shattered, cast away in the dirt
I wake up screaming, in the middle of the night
I can still feel them raping me, selling me
breaking me, using me.
“Only after the last tree has been cut down.
Only after the last river has been poisoned.
Only after the last fish has been caught.
Only then will you find that money cannot be eaten.” *1
I struggle between the old and the new
I look in the mirror
"Am I me or am I you?"
I can't feel my body
my sight is gone
I feel blind and deaf
What have I done?
I have forsaken my god, Abandoned my values
I run as fast as I can
So the ring of men
Who steal women for money
will never find me
never touch me
never hurt me
Is it worth living,
when your only choice-
Is to keep running
or risk hurting everyone you love - just to stay still?
Is it right to join sodom and gomorrah
The source of all modern pain
for a lazy boy armchair
and financial gain?
I was running before they found me
from years and years of pain
and now like a volcano
it is a torment I can no longer contain
When you come to a point
where the pain is too much
You can either eat it or let it eat you
I can't stand you motherfuckers
who treat women like shit
I hope you all fucking die
I'm hard candy BITCH.
*1
“Only after the last tree has been cut down. Only after the last river has been poisoned. Only after the last fish has been caught. Only then will you find that money cannot be eaten.”
― Cree Indian Prophecy
Everything I have been suppressing
All the memories, all the pain and haunting flashbacks
nipping, biting, tearing at my heals
my heartbeat thunders, my breathing quick and jagged
my bare, bleeding feet, pitter patter- pitter patter, faster; faster
I keep running, never sleeping soundly unless the car is moving
Is your gun loaded? Never give my real address
Never loving, never caring
always moving, always running
wind in my face, drugs in my hand
giving my body
in exchange for demand
I will do anything to make the pain stop
I don't care who I hurt.
Leaving everything I've loved and struggled to gain
broken, shattered, cast away in the dirt
I wake up screaming, in the middle of the night
I can still feel them raping me, selling me
breaking me, using me.
“Only after the last tree has been cut down.
Only after the last river has been poisoned.
Only after the last fish has been caught.
Only then will you find that money cannot be eaten.” *1
I struggle between the old and the new
I look in the mirror
"Am I me or am I you?"
I can't feel my body
my sight is gone
I feel blind and deaf
What have I done?
I have forsaken my god, Abandoned my values
I run as fast as I can
So the ring of men
Who steal women for money
will never find me
never touch me
never hurt me
Is it worth living,
when your only choice-
Is to keep running
or risk hurting everyone you love - just to stay still?
Is it right to join sodom and gomorrah
The source of all modern pain
for a lazy boy armchair
and financial gain?
I was running before they found me
from years and years of pain
and now like a volcano
it is a torment I can no longer contain
When you come to a point
where the pain is too much
You can either eat it or let it eat you
I can't stand you motherfuckers
who treat women like shit
I hope you all fucking die
I'm hard candy BITCH.
*1
“Only after the last tree has been cut down. Only after the last river has been poisoned. Only after the last fish has been caught. Only then will you find that money cannot be eaten.”
― Cree Indian Prophecy